My First Dream - Exposed

18 April 2017

This painting MY DREAM was my first of its kind.

I had this dream on 18 April 2017 and it was the first one that I recorded in my little 'purple book' that I carry everywhere. It is now the first of many and has taken my art in an amazing new direction.

This dream occurred after many months of a terrible situation:

After 12 years with the same organisation and a sequence of narcissistic managers, an obscene workload and pressure to perform intense operational functions that I had not been trained to undertake, it all came tumbling down.

Someone I had trusted and served loyally for several years turned on me as a result of a valued team member and my dear friend raising these workload issues with the perpetrator, which basically put evidence of his mismanagement in writing. This was a very senior person with a senior history in the defence force. Someone who was highly skilled in manipulation, extremely insecure, and dangerous. He was prepared to use anyone to meet his unreasonable self-serving needs and cover up his inadequacies and flaws.

The result was many months of bullying and intimidation in an environment that lacked the capability or maturity to understand and manage this type of complex situation. An environment of want-to-be enforcement officers who wish to command and control with total disregard for its people.

I continue to work through the fractured systems that have lost sight of who their clients are and humanity in general, and have literally broken people, homes and families without flinching. This is my project and I can only hope that I can gather and demonstrate enough evidence to an independent party that change may be influenced.

So that's enough information about the situation for you to judge how relevant my first recorded dream is.

MY FIRST DREAM

There I am in a very well manicured green meadow with my mother when we look down to see a black bird nearly as large as me, slender, long and with a beak around 1 foot long. It has very colourful and vibrant breast feathers but was very much dead. There was also another identical black bird with the same colours, dead, regular size but also very much dead. We felt it was a shame to see these beautiful creatures lifeless .

Then I saw a flock of geese followed by a rabbit before I say an enormous tree. My husband climbs up first then reaches down to me, showing me footholds and outstretching his hand to help me climb up to him. He stays just above me as I cling to limbs and climb up behind him. At the top of the tree is a beautiful leafy, green canopy full of brightly coloured birds.

When I researched the meaning behind this dream I discovered the following:

Black bird, dead: disappointment or failure; emptiness, loss, depression, or unpleasant change.

Geese: someone who never thinks they are wrong, self-important and total disregard to anything else, complete disregard of others feelings, always having to be right even if it hurts or costs others, lying to maintain importance, self-regard.

Rabbit: Feeling intimidated, Feelings about sensitive people in my life that I approach with care.

Tree: A problem that is unchangeable and takes a lot of effort to get rid of. Confidence, faith or reliance, a persistent problem, climbing by choice, walking life situations, feeling the need to prove that i can overtake something.

Birds in tree: Transcendence and liberation, escaping boundaries and limitations, progress towards wholeness and harmony, goals, aspirations and hopes. Being spiritually free or clean.